Hello World! Depression, Hope & Possibility

“Life’s challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they’re supposed to help you discover who you are.”
Bernice Johnson Reagon 

Depression...Then Hope

1. another 2. Hello darkness, my old friend
3. even cowgirls get the blues
4. Light at the end of the tunnel 5. Thank You

As some of you know, these last few months have been particularly trying for me. Though not always easy (or successful), I put a sincere effort into maintaining a positive attitude throughout times like these… a life lesson, I wasn’t always aware of. Sadly, there was a time where circumstances like those of late, would have had me sitting & rocking on the edge of a roof not wanting to live.. yet not wanting to die. Looking back.. that event seems so surreal.

  “Your work is to discover your work and then with all your heart to give yourself to it.”

 Living with Tourette’s Syndrome, and Bipolar Disorder, has presented many challenges for me… the hardest of which, is fighting those ‘demons’ in my head. An internal struggle, that I have accepted will never cease. My best defense is self-awareness, and to achieve that.. I am constantly in the process of self discovery. As you get to know me, you will begin to see just how evident this is within my artwork… a tad ironic, considering my creativity is a blessing and gift that having these disorders provides. Admitting this, believing this, and embracing this .. is also my path to healing, my way to cope.

 “The greatest discovery of all time is that a person can change his future by merely changing his attitude.”
Oprah Winfrey

In early April, when just about everything in my life seemed so damned bleak to me.. I forced myself to begin a shift in my mental state. Little by little, day by day, literally.. just…
… o n e – s t e p …
… a t – a – t i m e …
I found myself waking up… that rebirth of self so many speak of, and we chalk off as silly or absurd…I found myself saying “Hello” to the world and all it’s endless possibilities once again…I had found hope, where I least expected it… within myself.

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“Hello World”
 Mixed Media Collage & Painting
One of a Kind 4″ x 4″ Canvas Panel
By Raleigh, NC Outsider Artist Chrysti

This beautiful piece, was created during that magical time. The adorable, vintage puppy with his hopeful, eager eyes.. looking ahead at what’s to come. A cheerful, whimsical world just awaiting him to discover it and if you look carefully, you can see the faint image of a newborn baby behind him, a symbolic image of that rebirth.

Though this is piece is small, it took hours to create .. no detail was left unturned. It has served as a powerful, inspiring reminder to me over these last 2 months, and it’s my wish now .. that it do the same for someone else.. so, it’s for sale here. You can read a bit more about this small treasure in the listing as well.

“Our real discoveries come from chaos, from going to the place that looks wrong and stupid and foolish.”
Chuck Palahniuk

 Learning is the discovery that something is possible
-Fritz Perls

Now go – discover something, anything …that you didn’t believe was possible.


8 Responses

  1. Oh Chrysti…You have made me so proud!…and you should be extemely proud of yourself and your accomplishments….I got chills reading this (the good kind):) I too am starting to feel this way…the feeling of contentment and acceptance of things the way they were meant to be….If I were there right now I would give you a big hug and tell you WAY TO GO GIRL! So wrap your arms around yourself and squeeze a hug from me….I am feeling much better about today after reading this…Thank You! :)

  2. I really like the progression of the 5 images…very moving

  3. Chrysti you are brilliant your awakening/ rebirth has also touched others, thankyou, Judyx

  4. Chrysti, I have to tell you I find you truly inspirational. We have never met but I first encountered you through Claudine Hellmuth’s egroup, then found your ebay shop, then followed you to Flickr, joined some of your groups and now find myself here, at your blog, eagerly waiting to see what you are achieving. And believe me, it is so much. I also have chronic health problems and sometimes find it impossible to socialize with my friends as much as I feel the need to. The online community, of which you are a leader, and which I discoved only a few months ago, has felt like a real life-line to me. I thank you for sharing your journey and look forward to witnessing your continued successes.

  5. Thanks so much y’all.. it means the world to me to hear from you.. Often leaves the very talkative me.. speechless.

    I look forawrd to getting to know y’all even better!

  6. very interesting post! I wish I could write like you…


  7. Very nice! Life has its profound way and yet I always find myself holding a rose at the end of my circumstances! :-)

  8. how did i get here?

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