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my sweet girl morgan

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Hello World! Depression, Hope & Possibility

“Life’s challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they’re supposed to help you discover who you are.”
Bernice Johnson Reagon 

Depression...Then Hope

1. another 2. Hello darkness, my old friend
3. even cowgirls get the blues
4. Light at the end of the tunnel 5. Thank You

As some of you know, these last few months have been particularly trying for me. Though not always easy (or successful), I put a sincere effort into maintaining a positive attitude throughout times like these… a life lesson, I wasn’t always aware of. Sadly, there was a time where circumstances like those of late, would have had me sitting & rocking on the edge of a roof not wanting to live.. yet not wanting to die. Looking back.. that event seems so surreal.

  “Your work is to discover your work and then with all your heart to give yourself to it.”

 Living with Tourette’s Syndrome, and Bipolar Disorder, has presented many challenges for me… the hardest of which, is fighting those ‘demons’ in my head. An internal struggle, that I have accepted will never cease. My best defense is self-awareness, and to achieve that.. I am constantly in the process of self discovery. As you get to know me, you will begin to see just how evident this is within my artwork… a tad ironic, considering my creativity is a blessing and gift that having these disorders provides. Admitting this, believing this, and embracing this .. is also my path to healing, my way to cope.

 “The greatest discovery of all time is that a person can change his future by merely changing his attitude.”
Oprah Winfrey

In early April, when just about everything in my life seemed so damned bleak to me.. I forced myself to begin a shift in my mental state. Little by little, day by day, literally.. just…
… o n e – s t e p …
… a t – a – t i m e …
I found myself waking up… that rebirth of self so many speak of, and we chalk off as silly or absurd…I found myself saying “Hello” to the world and all it’s endless possibilities once again…I had found hope, where I least expected it… within myself.

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“Hello World”
 Mixed Media Collage & Painting
One of a Kind 4″ x 4″ Canvas Panel
By Raleigh, NC Outsider Artist Chrysti

This beautiful piece, was created during that magical time. The adorable, vintage puppy with his hopeful, eager eyes.. looking ahead at what’s to come. A cheerful, whimsical world just awaiting him to discover it and if you look carefully, you can see the faint image of a newborn baby behind him, a symbolic image of that rebirth.

Though this is piece is small, it took hours to create .. no detail was left unturned. It has served as a powerful, inspiring reminder to me over these last 2 months, and it’s my wish now .. that it do the same for someone else.. so, it’s for sale here. You can read a bit more about this small treasure in the listing as well.

“Our real discoveries come from chaos, from going to the place that looks wrong and stupid and foolish.”
Chuck Palahniuk

 Learning is the discovery that something is possible
-Fritz Perls

Now go – discover something, anything …that you didn’t believe was possible.

Hope and Better Days ..

Remember this post yesterday? Well, did I ever ‘Scream’!  True to myself, I did it unconventionally allowing it to take form in my newest altered art piece… and wow.. the healing power of creating art… never, never ceases to amaze me. I blogged about the background earlier, it was one of the Try It Tuesdays canvas’s I experimented with…see it here.

 A Better Day
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A Better Day
This life’s a rugged way for us, But there’s a better day for us
8″ x 8″ Mixed Media Collage & Painting on Canvas
by Raleigh, NC Outsider Artist Chrysti

“In the night of death, hope sees a star, and listening love can hear the rustle of a wing.”
Robert Ingersoll

Initially, I went up into my art room, just as crabby as could be .. really, I was in a downright foul mood. I chose this adorable vintage dog, as his sad face.. well, it just spoke to me. In that moment? I was that pitifully sad, almost hopeless puppy. His whole world began dark and gloomy.. but as I worked the piece.. something, well magical happened..

“In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer.”
Albert Camus

I wanted a better world, a more colorful world for the puppy…a happier place, as it’s what he so richly deserves. I wanted him to have wings, to soar.. to fly free.. My heart ached for him and I wanted him to have love, companionship…and hope for a better day. It was my desire that he find a whimsical world, where anything was possible. Little by little, both my mood and the piece began to transform before me.. it was an amazing experience.. and I am more then pleased with the result.

“We must learn to let go, to give up, to make room for the things we have prayed for and desired.”
Charles Fillmore

I’m gonna have a heck of a time parting with this piece, but alas.. finances (or my lack there of) need to win out this internal conflict.. so it’s for sale here. You can read a bit more about it there as well. It’s my hope, that this piece touches someone else, as it did me. It truly is a small part of me… amazing how that occurs isn’t it? Ahhh, better days ahead.

Remember Friends..
“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.”
– Chrysti